Fri Jun, 18 2004
Not Me
> From: Mike Schneider
> Sent: Friday, June 18, 2004 5:31 AM
> Subject: [I-S] Billy on a Banjo
> There's still time to, oh I dunno, buy a smallish
> apartment building in some Asian tiger with
> relatively loose social customs,...
I'm now having the same problem with you that I'm having with Kennedy, after his recent taking of my name in vain. It goes roughly like this:
"I don't know how many times I'm going to have to tell you."
I am an American, Michael. Try to understand. I've been around the world enough to know -- mind, body, heart and soul -- that there is no place else for me to be. There is no other political ideal worth fighting for than that which was born -- for the first time in human history -- right here on this continent, and which is, to me, inextricably connected to this land.
In his "November 1916" installment of the "Red Wheel" series of novels, Solzhenitsyn brought me to tears with his story of Colonel Vorotyntsev taking leave from the front, experiencing the compulsion to get down on his knees and kiss the stones of the square at the Kremlin, all because of how the history of his homeland moved his heart. I understood that completely.
I don't know how to impart that, but it is as real in me as I am, in myself.
I've told you before and I'll tell you again right now: I would happily die in an American prison before I ever ran away from this place.
This is it: this fight, in this place. When this light goes out, it could be a thousand years before it fires again, if ever.
I'm not going anywhere.




